“The dining room,” in case you’re wondering. Except this one is small, as Mexicans, Guatemalans, Salvadorians and all types of what one could classify as Latin Americans were squeezed into a tiny dark room to gather for a quaint but dire meal for them. Animals crackers and salsa, was on the menu today.

Photo by Lucy Valencia
The comedor is a lot of things, it’s dark and solemn, it’s quaint but crowded, it’s fast-paced and at times, slow moving. But more than anything, the comedor is, for the dozens of starving and tired deportees waiting in its long line, a last drop of hope. Alongside the desire that one day, they’ll make it back to the U.S. for whatever family, love, job or dream they left behind before they were deported to Nogales, Sonora, Mexico, by the U.S. Border Patrol.

Photo by Lucy Valencia

Photo by Lucy Valencia

Photo by Lucy Valencia
February 24, 2012
It was early morning on a Saturday, when three students (including myself) from Professor Rochlin’s Border Beat class at the University of Arizona traveled to Nogales, Sonora, to spend a day reporting on the deportees that went to El Comedor for refuge.

Photo by Lucy Valencia
Meeting these people was my absolute favorite reporting trip I’ve ever experienced, because the entire day I felt like my eyes were opened to a whole new level of poverty and faces of people that I only had seen as statistics. I felt like a princess, but not in a fairtytale way. More like in a way that made me sick to think I was so lucky. Looking down at my Chuck Taylor shoes, the most universal pair of American sneakers that comforted and shielded my pedicured toes, I met face to face with a woman who had no shoes– her feet swollen, cracked and blistered.

Photo by Lucy Valencia
So the Comedor absolutely enchanted me, changed me, called out to me to want to make a difference and broke my heart at the same time.

A mural on inside of El Comedor. Photo by Lucy Valencia
A group of University of Arizona journalism students and myself followed the lead of a retired nurse who volunteers with the
Kino Border Initiative, Peg Bowden, who is makes weekly trips to help out at El Comedor.

El Comedor, from a street view. Photo by Lucy Valencia
It all began when
Professor Rochlin,
Jessica Hoerth,
Brett Haupt and I met Peg at a deli in Tubac. Needless to say, we were all eager to begin reporting in Mexico. (Eager enough to give up cherished sleep to be awake at 6 a.m. on a Friday, I know- weird). Some of us had never been to Mexico. I hadn’t ever been to Nogales, Sonora.
Had you been sitting next to us on the hour and a half hour ride from Tucson to Nogales, Sonora, the intellectual exchange you would have overheard would’ve been bubbly and excited, as we chatted away about school, classes and graduation. I daydreamed about what kind of stories we might end up with.
But I don’t think anyone of us were prepared for what was in store.
Then I finally saw it. The border wall. It was grandiose and boisterous, yet I couldn’t help but feel the overabundance of security, meant to keep humans from other humans, seemed brutal and segregating.

U.S.-Mexico border wall near Nogales, Sonora. Photo by Lucy Valencia
We walked and people-watched as we made our way to the Mexican side of the border. An endless line of semi-trucks and cars waited on the Mexican “frontera” to cross over to the U.S. side. It was very clear that getting to Mexico would be a hassle-free step through a gate… But it was the returning to America part that made you wait, wait, wait, and wait in a hot and patience-testing line before it was your turn to prove your authentication with a flash of your best smile and a passport, as a guard made certain you had the certified rights to enter the country before granting you admission.

The "welcome" sign into Mexico. I got in trouble for taking this photo by Mexican law enforcement. But made it out alive and unscathed. Photo by Lucy Valencia
We eventually found our way to El Comedor, a shack-like place about 10 feet from the border, with a colorful green sign reading “FRONTERA USA” over its roof, almost a tease to deportees and hopeful immigrants of how close they were to the land they desired most but where barred from. El Comedor was run by a team of Jesuits and nuns who worked with the Kino Border Initiative to clothe immigrants with donated items, feed them and pray with them.

Photo by Lucy Valencia
The latter was the most powerful. Whether you are Christian, Agnostic, Atheist, or anywhere in between–the faith of these people can be felt just by hearing the entire room rattle with prayer before they begin a meal of crackers and salsa.
When we first arrived, I saw yet another line of people waiting out in the sun; this one much more difficult to comprehend than the one outside the border. Tired and unwashed faces waited on the sidewalk outside of the Comedor for food, water, shelter, clothes, and anything they could get. Most people were adults anywhere from their twenties to old age, and there were about double the amount of men as there were women.
Some of these people had no shoes, other hadn’t eaten in days. Most looked at us intensely, with their big brown eyes as we walked by.

Photo by Lucy Valencia
We walked into the shack, and were greeted by a sister of the Missionary of the Eucharist. She introduced us to the immigrants who were inside–dozens of them. They stared as they were told that we were “periodistas,” journalists. I was just a student though, still not completely sure what I was doing. Just hoping there was enough memory in my card to take extra video in case I messed up. Just trying to remember how to speak my best Spanish, so I didn’t make a fool out of myself when I talked to these people. I wanted to give them my best attention, and I couldn’t even think of the Spanish word for “interview.”
Alas, my eye-opening trip came to an end. It was weird returning to the U.S. side of the border so easily and getting that familiar feeling in your stomach, the one where you have just come back from a trip and are overwhelmingly disappointed to be home. Except I wasn’t back home, I was in Tucson, another incredible city where I’d probably go home and Netflix movie on my Macbook from my bed, then go out to dinner, return to my townhome in a gated community, maybe swim in my jacuzzi and fall asleep between two down comforters and my array of seven pillows. How spoiled we are…and how lucky.It almost made me sick. I’m Chicana, as Erick had told me. Embrassingly enough, I had to call my mom and ask what exactly that meant.
It is a Mexican, who was born in the United States.
I have Mexican roots but an American soul. I had lived in San Diego, Calif., Yuma, Ariz., and Tucson, Ariz., by the time I turned 20–never once considering my culture a factor of whether or not I was allowed to live there. In fact, I felt more “American” amidst my clique of blonde best friends growing up than most white people.
I loved reading and writing as a child, and people often came to me, the Mexican in the class, for help with grammar and writing.
In my free time back during high school and college I was obsessed with running, yoga, pop-culture, Starbucks vanilla lattes, fashion magazines, technology, art and web design. It’d been a dream of mine to one day live in New York City, leading a glamorous life, ever since I moved to what I thought was the smallest, crappiest town on the face of the whole earth.
I kept thinking about how lucky yet naive I was as I drove my car back to my house at the end of our trip.
Erick, who is 19, had already been deported eight times. He escaped a violent gang from east Los Angeles that entrapped him in a crew of fighting, drugs, and guns. The South Side gang provided him with the only “family” he ever knew, yet came with a heavy price tag: felony charges that eventually got him deported from the country.
He’d traveled through rivers and mountains for days without water. He hadn’t showered in weeks. He had not seen his mother or father since he was an infant. And he was ready to try again, all to espace to violence and poverty of Mexico.
Reading back through my old diaries, I learned that as a high schooler, all I really wanted was a golden retriever and a loft in London or New York City. In fact, reading my diary I felt worlds apart from the immigrants I’d seen waiting in line outside of El Comedor. How spoiled rotten and stupid I was.
Just hours ago, I’d spend time with them and felt a closeness to them in culture, in our roots, and in our way of mind. I wanted so desperately to help, and knew they were my people. They were just like me in every way imaginable; but not.
Paul Theroux, a New York Times reporter who wrote about Nogales here, said “It’s there for anyone to discover, and so simple. It was as illuminating to me as any foreign travel I have taken anywhere in the world. In some ways, being so near home and taking less effort, it seemed odder, freighted with greater significance, this wider world at the end of Morley Avenue, just behind the fence.”
So we are in agreement. There is nothing quite like Nogales.
And so El Comedor, you will be missed. Thank you for all of the unforgettable people, places and memories that have broadened my experiences and changed my life. Those moments that I all shared together really will last a lifetime; and all the big things, little things, cherished things, and such truly extraordinary things are now imprinted in our minds and hearts forever.